"Double Barrel Defense", December 1st, 2010

So accustomed to sleeping with a shotgun
Alarms and tripwires set to wake me to anyone
Daring to enter this bastion of my isolation,
Prepared to gun down any without hesitation
Intention discretion irrelevant to my reaction,
Blind defense to guard this place,
Concealing sins in the closets, not brave enough to face
Their poisons, aging scars my sleeping fingers trace,
From battles won and lost and memories erased...

"Color Scheme", October 16th, 2010

I wasn't going to post this, but who the hell reads it anyway?

Written on my phone.

Using monochrome paint swatches
For a spectrum-wide color sketch
Pencil lines cant be seen on the canvas,
Watercolors bleeding through the page,
Wish I could show you why this is,
Without the internal war I'd wage
To maintain my ability to remain half-sane,
While retaining the energy to clearly explain.

"Desert Desertion", October 10th, 2010

The body is safe but the heart remains homeless,
Finding a way to start to overcome this
Sandstorm of bullets and sword strikes of lies,
Finding it's blinded as the wind whips its eyes,
Losing direction and unable to find
The way to link back to its body and mind
Turning away to recover its sight,
But still can't see as the sun's blindingly bright,
And although it knows well that nothing is right,
It continues to fight on with all of its might,
Hoping the winds will be calmer one night,
Allow it to find another like it to unite
With and both find a way to conquer the haze,
And build up a way to beat back the forays
Of attacks amplified by the sun's white-hot rays,
Find a way back to the body and mind,
To a home in which both could reside,
And could know that once they make it inside,
There's no bullets to dodge, and nothing to hide.

"Hold the Line" - April 28, 2010

Searching for a pattern in the stucco ceiling,
Wondering when it was that I got this feeling,
Maybe I'm just reeling, or is someone stealing,
The flame I had inside me that kept me killing,
Close my eyes and faces flash like an off track film reel,
Mind's racing back and forth trying to see what is real,
And for an instant I can hear those voices,
That would all still be around if I made different choices,
I blink and there I am under the stars just lyin'
Thinking and reflecting as I watch Orion,
Analyzing life and thinkin' I might be dyin',
Cause even with this grief it turns out I'm not cryin',
There's nothing I can do and trust me I do know that,
Three could maybe help but I know one won't come back,
One mistakes my actions as lethal combat,
The other gets scared and has to pull back,
So I don't know what to say or do but life still goes on,
Step by step I'll trudge along until it's all gone,
And once this merciless wave of shots have all been bested,
This tired soldier you know now will find some rest.

"Anthem", November 4th, 2007

Check the date on this one first...

So we face the world with mile wide smiles

(Knowing inside our eyes are on fire)

They see the twinkle of trust in our eyes

(When deep down inside we want them to die)

Use our lives for the masses of friends

(But under our skin the anger never ends)

It’s a lonely wasteland,

Being the hero of the hour

The envy in the desert sand

Turns it all desolate, except for one flower

The flower of the one who sees the truth

(When I met you my heart was ice

Chipped from pain and melting away

They’d turn up the heat with their lies

And leave me there to fade away

Until you let me see the truth)

We still let them think we’re so naïve

(The twinkle in our eyes are really knives)

They’ll never get it, they’ll never see

(The silent truths of you and me)

The world thinks we purely hate each other

(But we couldn’t live without one another)

So we’ll let them think they know it all

(And we’ll laugh when all of them fall)

Both:

So go on, world, go on and doubt us

Do your best and try to attack us

Break us

Shake us

Give us all you got

Cause we both know when it comes to the end

We’ll just be stronger and you’ll lay there dead.