"Metagame", June 29, 2012

Words and warnings work as subterfuge
Wars and ways will shield me from you
Blood boiled black, colder than ice,
Heart held hostage, heat-hardened thrice
Passion forged by fire
With a mind pushed through frozen hell
Seamless mirrors disguising tripwires
Protecting that hard as diamond shell
So you can see it - irrelevant
You'll never breach it's perimeter,
Never reach it's internal tenant.

This is the home I know,
Where by my will, time moves slow,
My eyes bring order where chaos flows,
The methods of which I'll never show.

Dare you evict me from this home?
Knowing without it, I've nowhere to go?
Would you loose this beast upon them?
Or stand with me until the end?

Or do you intend to solve this labyrinth,
with no claim to the prize within?

Do you play the same game as I?

"Fear For The Forsaken", November 9th, 2011

I'm prepared,
So be scared,
You won't be able to withstand the attack
Once the blood in my heart is boiling black
Storms, hurricanes, quakes and flames
Fly to find those the spider names,
No, not a soul will hear your screams
When blood and darkness fill your dreams,
A landscape which you can't escape,
Doesn't matter which path you take
Can't be changed by any choice you make
This spider's mark can not be healed,
Once venom sets in, your fate is sealed.

"Double Barrel Defense", December 1st, 2010

So accustomed to sleeping with a shotgun
Alarms and tripwires set to wake me to anyone
Daring to enter this bastion of my isolation,
Prepared to gun down any without hesitation
Intention discretion irrelevant to my reaction,
Blind defense to guard this place,
Concealing sins in the closets, not brave enough to face
Their poisons, aging scars my sleeping fingers trace,
From battles won and lost and memories erased...

"Color Scheme", October 16th, 2010

I wasn't going to post this, but who the hell reads it anyway?

Written on my phone.

Using monochrome paint swatches
For a spectrum-wide color sketch
Pencil lines cant be seen on the canvas,
Watercolors bleeding through the page,
Wish I could show you why this is,
Without the internal war I'd wage
To maintain my ability to remain half-sane,
While retaining the energy to clearly explain.

"Desert Desertion", October 10th, 2010

The body is safe but the heart remains homeless,
Finding a way to start to overcome this
Sandstorm of bullets and sword strikes of lies,
Finding it's blinded as the wind whips its eyes,
Losing direction and unable to find
The way to link back to its body and mind
Turning away to recover its sight,
But still can't see as the sun's blindingly bright,
And although it knows well that nothing is right,
It continues to fight on with all of its might,
Hoping the winds will be calmer one night,
Allow it to find another like it to unite
With and both find a way to conquer the haze,
And build up a way to beat back the forays
Of attacks amplified by the sun's white-hot rays,
Find a way back to the body and mind,
To a home in which both could reside,
And could know that once they make it inside,
There's no bullets to dodge, and nothing to hide.

"Hold the Line" - April 28, 2010

Searching for a pattern in the stucco ceiling,
Wondering when it was that I got this feeling,
Maybe I'm just reeling, or is someone stealing,
The flame I had inside me that kept me killing,
Close my eyes and faces flash like an off track film reel,
Mind's racing back and forth trying to see what is real,
And for an instant I can hear those voices,
That would all still be around if I made different choices,
I blink and there I am under the stars just lyin'
Thinking and reflecting as I watch Orion,
Analyzing life and thinkin' I might be dyin',
Cause even with this grief it turns out I'm not cryin',
There's nothing I can do and trust me I do know that,
Three could maybe help but I know one won't come back,
One mistakes my actions as lethal combat,
The other gets scared and has to pull back,
So I don't know what to say or do but life still goes on,
Step by step I'll trudge along until it's all gone,
And once this merciless wave of shots have all been bested,
This tired soldier you know now will find some rest.

"Anthem", November 4th, 2007

Check the date on this one first...

So we face the world with mile wide smiles

(Knowing inside our eyes are on fire)

They see the twinkle of trust in our eyes

(When deep down inside we want them to die)

Use our lives for the masses of friends

(But under our skin the anger never ends)

It’s a lonely wasteland,

Being the hero of the hour

The envy in the desert sand

Turns it all desolate, except for one flower

The flower of the one who sees the truth

(When I met you my heart was ice

Chipped from pain and melting away

They’d turn up the heat with their lies

And leave me there to fade away

Until you let me see the truth)

We still let them think we’re so naïve

(The twinkle in our eyes are really knives)

They’ll never get it, they’ll never see

(The silent truths of you and me)

The world thinks we purely hate each other

(But we couldn’t live without one another)

So we’ll let them think they know it all

(And we’ll laugh when all of them fall)

Both:

So go on, world, go on and doubt us

Do your best and try to attack us

Break us

Shake us

Give us all you got

Cause we both know when it comes to the end

We’ll just be stronger and you’ll lay there dead.

"Reverse Dreamcatcher", December 18th, 2009

I could sit and glare at you
Stew and steam and stare at you
Let my nostrils flare at you
But it wouldn't change your character
No it wouldn't change a hair on your head
My eyes aren't black, I'm not seeing red
This twisted skewed soul isn't wanting you dead
Every single thought that runs through my head
Reminds me of how I'd love to forget you instead
Every lie that you said
Every line that you read
Every way that I let myself get led
To believe that you wouldn't leave,
That you would help and allow me to breath
Under the weight that I haul that this world doesn't see,
But unfortunately you eventually
Ended up tossing me away casually,
But it's ending up perfect in all actuality,
Cause the place you chose to throw me
Was into my friends, and they helped me see
That the one who'll make me happy is me
And being just what I want me to be
And not what I have to to keep you around
And getting upset and swallowing sounds
And wasting my time while my own dreams drown
You're nothing but my favorite memory now
Cause you've shown me the why and the how
To answer the questions I can't figure out
So I guess that's what this whole thing's about
Cause you were the one in who wouldn't get out
Of my head all these years but now there's no doubt
That you hurting me was the only way out.

"Elevelmentals" - December 10th, 2009

Level One - The Eyes
My first wave of defense starts with my eyes,
Prismatic and changing they become my disguise,
Acting like mirrors to deflect you away,
Staring beyond them will show you the way...

Level Two - The Words
Acting like smoke bombs and tear gas to throw off your trail,
Shifting sands and winds to ensure that you fail
To keep your focus or your direction
On just what is causing my wild insurrection...

Level Three - The Space
If you manage to find me in the sandstorm which I have created,
You'll find that the distance has left you deserted,
To break through here you must follow me close,
Not allowing me to become that shade, that ghost...

Level Four - The Fire
So you've stared through the prisms and seen what's below
Withstood the tornadoes and winds as they'd blow,
Ran me down for miles as I tried to fade away,
Now you've shown me that there's no other way,
The flames in my eyes start to burn hotter than ever,
Withstand them or our ties will fray and sever,
Put them out and you'll find my true form...

Level Five - The Ice
So here you find me, no weapons around,
Sitting so still, making no sound,
Entrapped in an ice block from my own fear,
The only escape for me is clear,
Holding on close till the ice melts to the floor,
Not breaking the gaze as my eyes open like doors,
Ensuring you'll be the first thing I see,
And knowing that my side is where you will be.

"Lie Among Liars" December 1st, 2009

The spider's here
Watching
Waiting
Baiting
Catching
Learning to adapt to new friends and tricks
Lends web to the snake so it's prey trips
Flies with the owl, spinning it in till there's no way out,
Lets the tiger guide it along the chosen route,
Till that now chameleonic spider reveals itself again
And the prey's fear is the only sign of the venom setting in,
Nowhere to run, nowhere to hide,
No way for its pack to know that it's died,
Weapons won't hit what you won't witness,
Nothing will stop it, no matter how vicious,
The only way to escape your demise
Is to join the same view as its prismatic eyes,
Your life will be spared
When its vision is shared,
But left full of doubt
When you're left without
Any way to know that it's there.