Everything around is so violent,
I'll just be staying silent,
Let the hurricane run it's course,
Go with the grain, not try to force
My endless will upon the way I wish it was.
Things just aren't meant for me,
For my world to be how I wished it'd be,
In the past I pursued things so recklessly,
Then walked away dejectedly
When it all came crashing down in chaos.
So now I'm done even trying, done with the fight,
Done trying to make things seemingly alright,
Go back to the secretive life I always lead,
Finished being open and letting them see
The person that I was, am, and soon will be.
Been holding together, someone remind me
Why I've been hoping that someone would find me
Instead of just using me to take all their blame,
Sick of being used as the pawn in their game
Of chess that won't end till they remember my name.
It's not important, it doesn't matter
To them if I hold together or if I shatter,
Day by day I've been wasting my time,
Pouring these words out in meaningless rhymes,
And this next verse is the end of the line.
So tonight is the last time I pick up the pen
That's been laying on the desk in my head
Knowing the lines on this page will never be read,
Find somewhere else to put my focus instead,
And now with these words, this craft becomes dead.
Thursday, December 11, 2008
Sunday, November 30, 2008
"Risk/Reward", November 30th, 2008
I almost chose not to post this. I'm still on the fence as to leaving it up here. I might take it down soon, I'm not sure.
Time to face it,
I can't erase it,
Can't escape it just in case it
Starts to encase me as I retrace it,
The steps I took to try to replace it,
No reasons for me on which to base it,
The decision on where I've chosen to place it,
Time to sit back and see how far this person takes it.
There's no way out, no running away,
No turning around and finding yesterday,
The concrete defenses, I'll turn them to clay,
Not gonna calculate each word that I say,
Just to set up a place where they'd choose to stay,
Let them decide if there's any way
To believe that my past is not my today.
Time to face it,
I can't erase it,
Can't escape it just in case it
Starts to encase me as I retrace it,
The steps I took to try to replace it,
No reasons for me on which to base it,
The decision on where I've chosen to place it,
Time to sit back and see how far this person takes it.
There's no way out, no running away,
No turning around and finding yesterday,
The concrete defenses, I'll turn them to clay,
Not gonna calculate each word that I say,
Just to set up a place where they'd choose to stay,
Let them decide if there's any way
To believe that my past is not my today.
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
This post is one which is quite...unique.
I've decided to do nothing but write, starting now, about anyone whose name pops into my head.
I won't name who it is. Feel free to find me on AIM (sixpackreich) if you think a verse pertains to you, or if you are curious who a specific verse pertains to. There are no secrets.
Read on.
For two years I considered you my closest friend,
I believed that the bond between us couldn't break or bend,
Little did I know this is how it would end,
I really don't know just how you intend
To fend for yourself, without me to lend
An ear or a thought, or the time that I'd spend,
Or the hand I'd extend to just try to amend
The issues between us, the one I called "friend."
In much less time, another has come and done the same,
Turned around and left just the way she came,
Disappeared during the chaos when I was putting out the flames
Of a side of me that I never bothered to label with a name,
Thought everything I did was just a sick part of a game,
Believed I was wild, when all I did was collected and tame,
Maybe one day she'll figure out that I'm not the one to blame,
Unimportant are their names - to me they're both the same.
Even quicker than those before, this one left her mark on my heart,
Should have known it was a disaster from the start,
Fell under the false notion that she'd understand my art,
Within just a few months our ways would part,
Just as her emotions turned, so will this verse,
Even though the words she chose were cold and terse,
They're not even close to the pain from what's worse -
The fact that it was those words in which I immersed.
I'm able to move on from these without a single tear,
Because of the lessons learned from a guide through the years,
Never letting me turn and run, pushing me to face the fears,
But never chose to interfere, to take the wheel and steer,
When words fell on deaf ears, this one would still hear,
Without them, life would not have led me here,
Always meaning in their words, even if at first not clear,
Contain most of the concepts in life which I still hope to mirror.
Another face has joined the picture in recent times,
One whom I hope finds the hidden meaning in these rhymes,
Regardless of how little I know of the mind behind those eyes,
I'm willing to risk the chance that what I've seen is a disguise,
And no matter how many times I'm told it's unwise,
Ignoring the amount of logic this decision defies,
I'll answer all questions, with nothing hidden, when they arise,
Hope that my trust in them will rise.
Odd.
I expected this to be quite longer. There were more people who found their way into my thoughts, but I could not find any words to write for these people. Maybe a later time will change that.
Either way, feel free to ask who any specific verse pertains to - as well as ask what they mean, if they apply to you personally. I took quite a bit of time on most of these.
I've decided to do nothing but write, starting now, about anyone whose name pops into my head.
I won't name who it is. Feel free to find me on AIM (sixpackreich) if you think a verse pertains to you, or if you are curious who a specific verse pertains to. There are no secrets.
Read on.
For two years I considered you my closest friend,
I believed that the bond between us couldn't break or bend,
Little did I know this is how it would end,
I really don't know just how you intend
To fend for yourself, without me to lend
An ear or a thought, or the time that I'd spend,
Or the hand I'd extend to just try to amend
The issues between us, the one I called "friend."
In much less time, another has come and done the same,
Turned around and left just the way she came,
Disappeared during the chaos when I was putting out the flames
Of a side of me that I never bothered to label with a name,
Thought everything I did was just a sick part of a game,
Believed I was wild, when all I did was collected and tame,
Maybe one day she'll figure out that I'm not the one to blame,
Unimportant are their names - to me they're both the same.
Even quicker than those before, this one left her mark on my heart,
Should have known it was a disaster from the start,
Fell under the false notion that she'd understand my art,
Within just a few months our ways would part,
Just as her emotions turned, so will this verse,
Even though the words she chose were cold and terse,
They're not even close to the pain from what's worse -
The fact that it was those words in which I immersed.
I'm able to move on from these without a single tear,
Because of the lessons learned from a guide through the years,
Never letting me turn and run, pushing me to face the fears,
But never chose to interfere, to take the wheel and steer,
When words fell on deaf ears, this one would still hear,
Without them, life would not have led me here,
Always meaning in their words, even if at first not clear,
Contain most of the concepts in life which I still hope to mirror.
Another face has joined the picture in recent times,
One whom I hope finds the hidden meaning in these rhymes,
Regardless of how little I know of the mind behind those eyes,
I'm willing to risk the chance that what I've seen is a disguise,
And no matter how many times I'm told it's unwise,
Ignoring the amount of logic this decision defies,
I'll answer all questions, with nothing hidden, when they arise,
Hope that my trust in them will rise.
Odd.
I expected this to be quite longer. There were more people who found their way into my thoughts, but I could not find any words to write for these people. Maybe a later time will change that.
Either way, feel free to ask who any specific verse pertains to - as well as ask what they mean, if they apply to you personally. I took quite a bit of time on most of these.
Sunday, November 9, 2008
"Trapped by Escape" November 9, 2008
Close to my heart but far from my head,
Living each day with the nagging dread
That any minute I'll find out he's dead,
Wondering if there was anything I could have done instead
That would have stopped him before the night he fled,
And so I sit here, with a heart weighing like lead.
Obviously her issues were much worse than mine,
Considering the fact that she never had the time
To listen to my words, interpret the rhymes,
Spent my time with her much like the mime
On the street who just wishes he were understood
But is vastly ignored by the only ones who could.
All these people, friends who think they have a clue,
Don't bother to look past these eyes, it's nothing new,
Don't bother to find out for themselves whats false or true,
Believing the things that past people in my life thought they knew,
Throughout life the number of friends I've trusted is few,
At a glance the water may seem blue,
But a closer look reveals a much different hue.
And sometimes it feels like it just isn't right,
Wondering why I have to fight through the night,
Unable to sleep till outside turns bright,
Getting to the point where I'm losing sight
Of the dreams that I had, losing the will to fight,
Can't even walk cause my body's so tight
From the stress I push back to just get through the day,
Wishing that someone would just take it away,
Don't know how, dont know the way,
Just sick of the liars, the games that they play,
So this is it, I've got no more to say
About the people who were close who chose not to stay.
Living each day with the nagging dread
That any minute I'll find out he's dead,
Wondering if there was anything I could have done instead
That would have stopped him before the night he fled,
And so I sit here, with a heart weighing like lead.
Obviously her issues were much worse than mine,
Considering the fact that she never had the time
To listen to my words, interpret the rhymes,
Spent my time with her much like the mime
On the street who just wishes he were understood
But is vastly ignored by the only ones who could.
All these people, friends who think they have a clue,
Don't bother to look past these eyes, it's nothing new,
Don't bother to find out for themselves whats false or true,
Believing the things that past people in my life thought they knew,
Throughout life the number of friends I've trusted is few,
At a glance the water may seem blue,
But a closer look reveals a much different hue.
And sometimes it feels like it just isn't right,
Wondering why I have to fight through the night,
Unable to sleep till outside turns bright,
Getting to the point where I'm losing sight
Of the dreams that I had, losing the will to fight,
Can't even walk cause my body's so tight
From the stress I push back to just get through the day,
Wishing that someone would just take it away,
Don't know how, dont know the way,
Just sick of the liars, the games that they play,
So this is it, I've got no more to say
About the people who were close who chose not to stay.
Saturday, November 1, 2008
"Icarian Falcon", October 31, 2008
It's time for me to raise the stakes,
Take the chances I used to cancel,
Done are the days of playing it safe,
Done letting rage and wrath set the path,
Skin worn thin enough to be cut by rose petals,
Broken floodgates to the core to rust the metal,
Of a brain stained with the raining pain of a past,
Spending time trying to fly from it but moving too fast,
But if I slowed down I'd crash into an ocean so vast
That I'd never make it out alive, on a ship with no mast.
Take the chances I used to cancel,
Done are the days of playing it safe,
Done letting rage and wrath set the path,
Skin worn thin enough to be cut by rose petals,
Broken floodgates to the core to rust the metal,
Of a brain stained with the raining pain of a past,
Spending time trying to fly from it but moving too fast,
But if I slowed down I'd crash into an ocean so vast
That I'd never make it out alive, on a ship with no mast.
"Don't Answer Me", October 31, 2008
If I asked you not to worry about my past -
Could you let it be?
If I let you break the self-sufficient mold I've cast -
Could you catch me?
If I asked you to ignore the lies that they say -
Could you only believe what you see?
If I tried to run when you knew I should stay -
Could you stop me?
If I asked you to chance it without knowing who I am inside -
Could you trust me?
Could you let it be?
If I let you break the self-sufficient mold I've cast -
Could you catch me?
If I asked you to ignore the lies that they say -
Could you only believe what you see?
If I tried to run when you knew I should stay -
Could you stop me?
If I asked you to chance it without knowing who I am inside -
Could you trust me?
Thursday, October 30, 2008
"Breaking and Entering", October 30th, 2008
The shockwaves it set off left cracks in the floor,
I'm tripping over them as I stumble to the door,
Falling on my face while looking for something more,
Without even knowing what that doorway has in store,
The black lights turn on showing the fingerprints on the scene,
No matter how much I scrub away the stains, they're never clean,
What I once believed was red has now become green,
The damage they left behind is worse than what I've ever seen,
Broken down door crashes as it falls,
Can't wash the blame off the mud-stained floors and walls,
Trying to rest in a bed that's been torn apart,
Need to rebuild but I don't know where to start.
I'm tripping over them as I stumble to the door,
Falling on my face while looking for something more,
Without even knowing what that doorway has in store,
The black lights turn on showing the fingerprints on the scene,
No matter how much I scrub away the stains, they're never clean,
What I once believed was red has now become green,
The damage they left behind is worse than what I've ever seen,
Broken down door crashes as it falls,
Can't wash the blame off the mud-stained floors and walls,
Trying to rest in a bed that's been torn apart,
Need to rebuild but I don't know where to start.
Thursday, October 9, 2008
"Recovery Road" October 9th, 2008
Recovery's become a mountain, comprised completely of only shale,
Rising at such an angle, it's near impossible to scale,
Racing against the clock, while the world pressures you to wait,
Although you know the summit is the only remaining escape,
From those who clutch and grab at you, try to hold you back,
Running from their raging fire which turns all it touches black,
You spend each second climbing, but you don't know what's at the top,
All you know is you'll become their prey if you decide to stop,
You reach the summit only to find it's the first of an endless range,
Looking at the ground in front, you see the surface change,
As well as footsteps from those who've taken this journey prior,
Still visible in the distance are their figures climbing higher,
At the end of this rocky path is the happiness you desire,
But now is time to rest, you've escaped that frenzied fire,
This road, slick and dangerous, is better faced with two,
Not a one who went alone has ever made it through,
So here is the place to rest, and sleep secure tonight,
The one you're meant to travel with will come when the time is right.
Rising at such an angle, it's near impossible to scale,
Racing against the clock, while the world pressures you to wait,
Although you know the summit is the only remaining escape,
From those who clutch and grab at you, try to hold you back,
Running from their raging fire which turns all it touches black,
You spend each second climbing, but you don't know what's at the top,
All you know is you'll become their prey if you decide to stop,
You reach the summit only to find it's the first of an endless range,
Looking at the ground in front, you see the surface change,
As well as footsteps from those who've taken this journey prior,
Still visible in the distance are their figures climbing higher,
At the end of this rocky path is the happiness you desire,
But now is time to rest, you've escaped that frenzied fire,
This road, slick and dangerous, is better faced with two,
Not a one who went alone has ever made it through,
So here is the place to rest, and sleep secure tonight,
The one you're meant to travel with will come when the time is right.
Monday, September 29, 2008
"Short and Sour", September 29th, 2008
You treated my emotions with an element of fluidity,
An interrogative relationship, always questioning their validity,
I'll never forget those bladed words that you said to me,
Cut so deeply that they've become scarred into my memory,
"Time heals all wounds.", not a falser statement exists,
For the wounds of the suicidal will always show upon their wrists,
While I myself do not appear upon that groups member lists,
The scars I hold will be ever present from all your dagger twists.
An interrogative relationship, always questioning their validity,
I'll never forget those bladed words that you said to me,
Cut so deeply that they've become scarred into my memory,
"Time heals all wounds.", not a falser statement exists,
For the wounds of the suicidal will always show upon their wrists,
While I myself do not appear upon that groups member lists,
The scars I hold will be ever present from all your dagger twists.
Saturday, September 13, 2008
Saturday, September 13th, 2008 - "Truth"
In the end, you'll see what I've done
Not yet - cause it's only begun,
Soon enough you'll believe that I'm the one,
And when I'm through, you'll be shot with your own gun.
I'm the one that you'll need in the end,
The one whose will can't break or bend,
Those who accept me will be the ones I defend,
The ones to which my hand will extend.
You feared my intensity,
But just explain to me
Why my tenacity
Made me so untrustworthy
Maybe one day you can see
What it is I tried to be
What they call insanity
Is only personality
I'm the one that you'll need in the end,
The one whose will can't break or bend,
Those who accept me will be the ones I defend,
The ones to which my hand will extend.
And when you're trapped, with the flames burning higher,
And the very air around you is unbearably hotter,
I'll remember the day you labeled me a liar,
I'll sit back and watch as the fire starts your slaughter,
You'll regret ever having tried to conspire
Against the strongest of all, you shouldn't have bothered,
Your whole plan of attack will start to backfire,
And this time, you can't paint yourself as a martyr.
Not yet - cause it's only begun,
Soon enough you'll believe that I'm the one,
And when I'm through, you'll be shot with your own gun.
I'm the one that you'll need in the end,
The one whose will can't break or bend,
Those who accept me will be the ones I defend,
The ones to which my hand will extend.
You feared my intensity,
But just explain to me
Why my tenacity
Made me so untrustworthy
Maybe one day you can see
What it is I tried to be
What they call insanity
Is only personality
I'm the one that you'll need in the end,
The one whose will can't break or bend,
Those who accept me will be the ones I defend,
The ones to which my hand will extend.
And when you're trapped, with the flames burning higher,
And the very air around you is unbearably hotter,
I'll remember the day you labeled me a liar,
I'll sit back and watch as the fire starts your slaughter,
You'll regret ever having tried to conspire
Against the strongest of all, you shouldn't have bothered,
Your whole plan of attack will start to backfire,
And this time, you can't paint yourself as a martyr.
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